My face is frostbitten and my body shivers quietly beneath this thin sweatshirt, but I feel warm today. As if my blood is already pumping to spring's metronome. like no other before it I have spent this winter shivering with my mind frozen and cold, it has been a long winter that is for sure. I look up and watch the snow fall heavily upon my face and this earth. Flakes as big as quarters are drifting slowly over the city and dusting off the inversion. There is only so many more days left of winter and I can feel warmer weather approaching in my shoulder.
My fingers burn and I can't feel my toes, but it doesn't stop me from grinning up to the sky. I try to find the point where the snow begins; following the flakes up into the cool gray above. It's impossible to find this point and impossible to distinguish the individual flakes. my breath melts in contact.
Today I am free from the burden of winter, absolutely carefree from all that surounds me. Only thoughts of you are deep enough to penetrate this, more than the pain as I carry the snow in my hands. Winter is leaving and I am ready for the end. The end of coldness and grays, but with every end there is a beginning. I look at this as a clean break from the last year and all the harsh words that have pierced flesh of my own and others, or the petty actions done out of carelessness. When the shoots of new life come up and snow recedes back to it's corners, I will feel the last of change and realize that it is now that I can speak.
I hope you can feel change too, and the coming of the seasons, such strong forces and pull of nature.
Slipping my half thawed fingers in yours we are going to try this and experience with new senses. Because I have begun again, awakened to you.

happy valentines day, Om Mani Padme Hung